WOOOO!!

Woooo!..haha..i'm back!.>.<..Compared to the past few days,i'm indeed feeling much better....hurray!!..xD...haha...Now for the bad news,I am having my MT O lvl oral on this comin thurs..like OMG!!!..wanna cryT-T...but then..nah!...better to finish it of faster then i can enjoy my weekends!..haha..>.<..
Kinda had fun in class today..Sabra was like so funny, keep makin fun of people and all..Today a attendence sheet was passed around the class...its about the prom night and we are supposed to indicate if we are going anot..I'm not going and its not about the cost actually..i mean $60 to spent memorable time with our friends for the last time..its worth it..but then prom nite in singapore...who do you think would be interested in that?..even if there are people interested...well..not everyone is going right?..its meaningless and its not going to be fun...everyone just go there for dinner..chit chat and thats it..then whats the point?..:/..
I rather we have a party at somewhere..or go on a short tour trip where everyone can chill out..have fun and be themselves..isn't it better then to be stuck in a hotel room with heavy makeups , leggings,painful high heels and tight pants to be someone we are not, plus we also have to adhere to the rules of the hotel...(SUCKS!)
Haha..many funny things happened..now my mind is still thinking about what xue wen said to yilin just now..cause the hotel that may be chosen to conduct the prom nite was not really ideal..so he asked her..''eh..which hotel do you want to go?''(meaning which hotel she prefers)...i mean after hearing that i LOL>.<..really Loud..i mean literally..cause the way he ask her was like as if..well..as if..i am not gona say it here.:x..anyways..for those who were there just now..you should know what i mean..x)..
Another was when I shout across to ask if DJ whether she's going anot..She was going to answer no when Sabra shouted that DJ's going..haha..almost immediately everyone's heads turned to look at them...haha..xD
Okayokay..that's all for today...Adios Amigos and Cheers!!>.<

School Reopens~!

Today's like crap...@#!.. i mean everythin was fine at first actually..the lesson's...the homework...yeah..but today's mornin assembly was like this..ah-hum!:..*chit chat*''This annoucement goes out to all graduating classes..please gather at the hall by 1.30 for your mother tongue 'O' level oral examination..''...*GASP**eyes starts to bulge and everyone hold their breath*..''examination..briefing...please be punctual..''..and everyone goes phew....xD..but den...after the 1.30 briefin...we were told tt the oral starts from 1-15 july..LOL...What i'm afraid of was that im going to have it this WEEK!!...GAHH!!..i lik in deep shit..@__@..hope that tat's not true...gah..kk gotta stop bloggin le...woooo!!!*going bonkas*

Can't you see that i'm suffering over here?..
I know that you are feeling bad for not saying all that earlier..
But even so when I said that it's okay and that I understand..Can't you try to ask me how i really feel?
I really hope that you could be like what you used to be before, but it seems that the only thing you've been doing was to AVOID me..
Can't you see that my heart was like being ripped apart into million pieces by each and every words you say and the actions you did?
Even if you manage to piece them up together,There's still going to be cracks all over it..It will never be the same again..

To all my friends..thanks all of you who have been thr for me for the past few days...stayin up late and all..thanks n luv u guys!..hah..especially to one of eu..i guess eu shld knw who im tokin abt..if eu r readin tis..i'm so sorry...you shld knw pretty well tt i've been lik..makin use of eu to get over my stuff..but even so eu said tt eu understand and all...in short..i knw you r a nice person..but i want eu to knw tt its impossible btw us k?..im sorry..its abit harsh but i hope we can still remain as friend...cos tts wad i realli need now..

For the past few days i've been chiongin my hw..now im left wif my eng...wahahaha!..>.<..though i hadn been feelin well for days too...my abdomen area's actin up again..i lost my pills also..or is it tt i threw them away??..zz..-.-..haiz...my whole mind is lik in a whirlpool state of confusion..the whole day eu can c me starin into empty space..but when eu ask me wad m i thinkin..i onli can say tt i realli duno..i juz stun thr..zz..hope the next few wks can realli be hectic till i can forget who im..LOL..hai..later my parents goin out n thy r leavin me at home...wad shld i do?..zz..

i've been thinkin for awhile...realised that i was kinda foolish to let a incident lik tis affect me...):..
Over time things change..people will change too...lik wad my fwen said..it takes one day to pick up a bad habit..but three years to get rid of it...no matter how close eu r to smone..if they hab decided to go their own way..thr's no way eu cud change them...even if eu alert them beforehand..they wun notice it either....though i realli regret for not being able to do anythin when i cud...i also realise tt i shldn put all the blame on myself...i mean..hey at least i tried to warn them rite?..haha...
Now..im not really sure abt wad to do. ._. ..i m alwys thinkin..m i too nice to others especially peo close to me tt they alwys step all over me in the end...do i realli take things too personal too?..wad shld i do?...i realli duno n im scared...for the peo i cherish the most n whom r closest to me r leavin me one by one...tis left me wonderin if r thr any peo who eva cherish n care for me..
Hate to say tis but F#@k my Life!!..

man..didn't hab a gd slp last nite..TT..i kinda hab insomnia..lie on the bed frm 11...rolled..tossed n turn till 1 plus before i fell alsp..woke up at three...went bak to slp...den woke up at 5 plus again...continue to toss n turn till seven plus..before fallin also again n kena woke up by my ma at 9...T.T..seriously...duno wads affectin me..is either my mood...or thrs too much stuff runnin thru my mind...or lik wad my ma says...i lack of exercise!.. ._. ...lol..but i juz went swimmin not too long ago..plus i also perspired lik crazy durin kite flyin..my skin also got darker due to tis activities...aiya..duno lah..:/...kinda had fun at tution...the guys thr kinda made my spirits high again..haha...one of them still asked wads the diff btw bimbos n bitch..LOL..xD....anyways...for now..i dun demand anythin else..but to hope tt things will turn for the beta..:]...though i knw its impossible..but juz hope tt thrs miracle happenin...seriously...i realli cant start work on my stuff(hws)...dun think can do revision for my chemistry anymore...:(..

Seriously?!?..

woke up not too long ago..exchange a few texts..facebk...n now tis...It's raining now n is not doin much good either..-.-..seriously my hw's piled up high n i hab totally no mood n idea how m i to finish dem..zz..tts suxs rite?..hwhwhw..wan us to revise our work yet still pile us wif stuff to do..wts?!..haven do my physics skill 3...narrative...compres...amths...bio...chemi!...LOL...geog n ss...haiz... ._. ...seriously i can imagine myself not handin anywork up on tt day when skool reopens..LOL...
I juz hope tt all tis is juz a dream..but once thing is made up..thrs no turnin bak rite?...so its juz...TIME TO WAKE UP..YOU HAVE A DREAM YOU WANNA COMPLETE RITE?..AIM FOR WHAT YOU WANT AND GO FOR IT!..USE IT AS A SOURCE OF UR MOTIVATION!...radarada...i mean i knw i knw...but its juz so hard to do...now im juz singin along wif any song tt plays...hahaha..:3..
All the best to all my fwends!..i knw tyms r hard...all of eu r havin major headache n some of you broke down alrdy..but hey..tts not the end of the world?..jyjys everyone!...cheers!..^^

Living a day without you would mean having no life at all. But if losin you is the best thing to make you happy, then i must live without a life..

i hate my life!

15/6...15/6...15/6...this will be the day i will rmb for life...other then the 21/11 which was the best day we ever had...n the 21/6 which was the day we first went out as bff...
This mornin incident realli hitted me hard..i alwys tot tt im a strong wall..nthin can push me down..but im afraid tt i was wrong...ever since we first met..eu used to be the person i wanted to avoid the most...but as tym passed n due to the opportunities given to us to bond..we had in fact shared many beautiful n fun memories together..you are also the one who opened me up...but sadly..it didnt last...ever since this yr...eu changed...though i understand tt it had been hard on eu with the new school..new enviroment..n fwends...eu also hab many things to handle n settle...but still...after all this tym..i m sure n guess that eu r tired n sick of all the crap we hab been through lately n for tt..im awfully sorry for tt...
But though i knw eu tried not to n avoid hurtin me tym and again..it actualli hurts me the most after today...i really duno how m i gona get bak on track now...feelin lost n kinda scared...i realli duno wad i will do...wad if i close bak up lik last tym?..
But no matter what..if tts ur decision..n eu think it will be beta for both of us..den i guess i hab no choice but to accept n respect tt..i juz want you to be happy n excel in life...though i still hope tt our friendship wun juz end after this incident..
You will alwys hold a impt place in my heart..nvr be forgotten...<3..thanks for everythin eu hav given me...

i hate my life..

i officially declare...I hate my life to the max!..i mean wth...a blink of an eye n two weeks passed...my hw still piled up high..n the onli thing i managed to do was to get my penguin to fly(kite)..LOL..plus...my bff came bak..lol..we hadn been tokin for quite awhile..lik months..zz..i guess wif all the trip n stuff..her fwends n all..i guess tts it!..im officially long gone...hidden away behind sm closet at the back of her head..zz..why does she ends up as my bff...i mean it was a horrible year for her durin her sec 4 tym..but i was thr rite?..why can she do the sm for me?..all wif the pile of hw n busy jc life as n excuses...tts it!..even durin the holidays?..LOL..haiz..its not tt im not understandin or wad..she wan personal space..sure..i gib her tt..she wan spent tym wif other fwends..sure im fine wif it!..but m i so easy going till tt she dun ned to spend sm tym wif me??...hey im a human too..i have emotions..i will too feel neglected n used at tyms...:(..smtyms i really feel lik disappearin so tt when she realise tt when im gone..den she will regret?..lol..but i doubt she will...haiz..now wad can i do?..get bak on track i guess..study well for 'o's..i will focus n spent most of my tym studyin..lol..lik i can..but tts the onli thing i cud do..who ask me to be younger den her?..juz study..anythin happens juz get bak on track by myself...i dun ned to depend on anyone rite?..:]..haiz.. ._. ..maybe if i do well n enter a new skool wif new environment..i will meet beta n new fwends?..n enjoy myself...like how she's doin now?..
But even so...i will nvr ever forget the memories tt we used to share...the tym we first met..the problems we went thru n all...though to her i may be long forgotten...but to me she will alwys be in my heart..n no one can eva replace tt...i <3 you..