You guys just do not understand how i feel..The cca i joined is not just a "cca" to me..To me its a place where i can relieve my day's stress..a place where i can enjoy..a place that i can have fun..a place that i can be myself..To tell you all the truth..joining Salvo reminds me alot of the good O days...That same old feeling i used to feel when im playing pieces together with my mates back in secondary school..And i really missed that...I really hate the every single time when i'm in class with you guys..though we are from the same school and all..but i know you guys in and out..even hongyan who are closer to you all warn me of you guys(she didnt at first cause she was afraid that i will misunderstood her as trying to ruin our friendnship)...but i know it..just that i didn say it..(plus i really wanna know how long you can maintain that act of yours..-.-)
Though now as months pass..we never seems to have enough time for studies or for even sleep..everyday we are rushing to study for every single paper...Stressful indeed..But whenever i think of being able to go for Salvo practices every week..i just can't help it but to smile to myself...Its like i'm looking for to the Salvo practices every week..I don't care if it last from 6 to coming till 10pm..I won't even mind if i have more than two practices per week!..you know why?..cause i love it..I like this cca and i will not ever quit..I think the days in school would had been worst without salvo...I don't even i think that i can go through this first year without Salvo..
So please..don't think cause you all can't cope..i also cannot okay?..I do agree that studies are kinda hard now..but Salvo to me is not a burden..its a passion..drummin has always been in my blood..
But to people like you all..you guys never understand..to you CCAs may be just a insignificant useless thing where studies is everything to you all...but to people like me..we can't just do plain studying...our cca is a place where we can be ourselves..pick up new experience and learn different things like responsibilty and teamwork and many more...not to be rude..but its something you guys can never appreciate or understand..
Saturday, July 30, 2011
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
What the hell is wrong with you?!
How long have we known each other?..4 years...How long have we been in the same class?..2 years...How long have we been sitting next to each other...like a year plus?..
This post is dedicated specially to someone..Not to praise you or anything..but to rant out everything single thing i feel about you...You always been competitive..Always wanna win...Always wanna get the attention from people all around..Like to act cute..Like to act innocent..Everytime you got a problem..you want people to listen to you and help you..but when other people got a problem..you just plainly poured cold water over them..Why i know?..Cause thats how you always treat me..
We used to be able to talk just about anything..though at that time you were already pretty annoying cause of your bad points..but i tolerated...but ever since we started our new school year...you changed like god damn it..:/..Just cause i "left" the previous group for a new group to hang out with..you been ignoring me like a piece of shit...never sms me or chat with me again..always think of new ways to push me away...TO think of the days that i was there for you..pfhhh...seriously what the hell?..People dun know who you are..but i can tell you know..
You are just a jealous idiot..just cause i didn study for the whole year,always copy your hw..yet scored better than you at end of the year..you just jumped up banged my table and screamed at my face."HOW CAN YOU SCORE BETTER THAN ME??"..like how i knw?...ever since then..you been wary of me..like its my fault that i did well..i did i even know why?..Plus at that time i'm a nobody..always "float" in and out of the class ..you also stopped talking to me..
But hey!..god must be helping me or something...but just the next year..i begin to have my own group of peeps(popular for another word)..changed for a better person..then slowly you walk back and tried to talk to me...HAH!..
Starting of school this year..we were still hanging out cause we know nobody and i'm one of those people you know..now theres a new group(kinda popular?..maybe..) you are with..and you stop talking to me..cut of all contact with me...for what?..can you explain to me?..talking to me will affect your standing in that group or something?..its been a month since we last spoke..and i truly understand what kind of person you are...Hongyan is right too.."Those who you think are your friends..they may not be true at all..".."I didn't say cause i dun want you to think that i'm trying to ruin your friendship"..well..its pretty obvious what hongyan is refering to...To think all those people who are hanging out with you...i kinda pity them..cause if something were to happen..they won't even know the reason why they die...all bcos of you...i've seen enough yet you are the most frightening person i've known..your true self can never be match to how you look...
There are many things i know..i can have things happening to me and someone but yet i won't say it or telltales to others cause i do not wanna ruin the friendships between them(unlike you!)...There are many thing i understand..my friends around me are upset with something..I do understand and i do care and show concern!..just that i don't really show my emotion..i don''t wear it on my sleeves...and that i'm trying to change..i want all those who are always there for me..to know that i do care for them too..:]..
This post is dedicated specially to someone..Not to praise you or anything..but to rant out everything single thing i feel about you...You always been competitive..Always wanna win...Always wanna get the attention from people all around..Like to act cute..Like to act innocent..Everytime you got a problem..you want people to listen to you and help you..but when other people got a problem..you just plainly poured cold water over them..Why i know?..Cause thats how you always treat me..
We used to be able to talk just about anything..though at that time you were already pretty annoying cause of your bad points..but i tolerated...but ever since we started our new school year...you changed like god damn it..:/..Just cause i "left" the previous group for a new group to hang out with..you been ignoring me like a piece of shit...never sms me or chat with me again..always think of new ways to push me away...TO think of the days that i was there for you..pfhhh...seriously what the hell?..People dun know who you are..but i can tell you know..
You are just a jealous idiot..just cause i didn study for the whole year,always copy your hw..yet scored better than you at end of the year..you just jumped up banged my table and screamed at my face."HOW CAN YOU SCORE BETTER THAN ME??"..like how i knw?...ever since then..you been wary of me..like its my fault that i did well..i did i even know why?..Plus at that time i'm a nobody..always "float" in and out of the class ..you also stopped talking to me..
But hey!..god must be helping me or something...but just the next year..i begin to have my own group of peeps(popular for another word)..changed for a better person..then slowly you walk back and tried to talk to me...HAH!..
Starting of school this year..we were still hanging out cause we know nobody and i'm one of those people you know..now theres a new group(kinda popular?..maybe..) you are with..and you stop talking to me..cut of all contact with me...for what?..can you explain to me?..talking to me will affect your standing in that group or something?..its been a month since we last spoke..and i truly understand what kind of person you are...Hongyan is right too.."Those who you think are your friends..they may not be true at all..".."I didn't say cause i dun want you to think that i'm trying to ruin your friendship"..well..its pretty obvious what hongyan is refering to...To think all those people who are hanging out with you...i kinda pity them..cause if something were to happen..they won't even know the reason why they die...all bcos of you...i've seen enough yet you are the most frightening person i've known..your true self can never be match to how you look...
There are many things i know..i can have things happening to me and someone but yet i won't say it or telltales to others cause i do not wanna ruin the friendships between them(unlike you!)...There are many thing i understand..my friends around me are upset with something..I do understand and i do care and show concern!..just that i don't really show my emotion..i don''t wear it on my sleeves...and that i'm trying to change..i want all those who are always there for me..to know that i do care for them too..:]..
Friday, July 22, 2011
I just did this psychology personality quiz.Don't know why,but the results are kinda true..o.o..haha..so i think i'll just post the results here...
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Can't be compared...
A really nice poem by Daniel J.Named Unchallenged In Beauty..Enjoy!:D
A butterfly flutters softly in the wind.
The morning sun, rises to the heavens,
The lush, green grass sways,
As the soft wind blows.
A blooming flower, all red and white,
Glorifies life and offers peace.
Cherry blossoms, heartwarming pink,
Scatter in the warm wind.
So beautiful is the world,
Unchallenged in beauty.
The seaside, waves crashing onto shore,
Alone a royal tern glides,
As if calmly searching,
For a partner, a lover for life.
The forest, engulfed in a sea of green,
So quiet, yet disturbingly loud.
The graceful stag, watches over his home,
In the calm of spring day.
So beautiful is the world,
Unchallenged in beauty
Two lovebirds in harmony,
Live in the harsh desert,
Chirping their love for the other,
Without a care for the world.
Everything in pairs,
The creatures of the earth,
All in twos,
Reminding me...
So beautiful is the world,
Unchallenged in beauty.
A twinkling light, from the heavens,
Gleams down onto Earth,
On a bench, where I sat,
As I thought...
So beautiful is the world,
But not as beautiful as you.
A butterfly flutters softly in the wind.
The morning sun, rises to the heavens,
The lush, green grass sways,
As the soft wind blows.
A blooming flower, all red and white,
Glorifies life and offers peace.
Cherry blossoms, heartwarming pink,
Scatter in the warm wind.
So beautiful is the world,
Unchallenged in beauty.
The seaside, waves crashing onto shore,
Alone a royal tern glides,
As if calmly searching,
For a partner, a lover for life.
The forest, engulfed in a sea of green,
So quiet, yet disturbingly loud.
The graceful stag, watches over his home,
In the calm of spring day.
So beautiful is the world,
Unchallenged in beauty
Two lovebirds in harmony,
Live in the harsh desert,
Chirping their love for the other,
Without a care for the world.
Everything in pairs,
The creatures of the earth,
All in twos,
Reminding me...
So beautiful is the world,
Unchallenged in beauty.
A twinkling light, from the heavens,
Gleams down onto Earth,
On a bench, where I sat,
As I thought...
So beautiful is the world,
But not as beautiful as you.
Not Over You
I thought that I've already gotten over you...But apparently I'm not. In fact that feeling came back stronger when I finally met up with you after months...At first I thought its just a small crush on you and I'm falling for someone else when in fact its the other way round..Do not know if its just me or are you feeling the same thing for me?..I really want to know..You talked to me and touch me in a way totally different from the way you treat the rest..And you don't know how happy I was when you picked the largest print where your head and mine are leaning next to each other..Maybe I think too much or maybe I'm just trying to get my hopes up..
Saturday, July 2, 2011
Face It
Hehe..Today's Saturday and this week is soon coming to an end.:).Got back all my results..so far they are not that good..passed them but not good enough..The week's pretty hectic..many things happened at home..:/..urgh...Sis got food poisoning and apparently she spread it to my bro and dad...now my mum and i need to be kinda isolated from them for awhile..
Heh..yesterday i got my class outing with my previous classmates 4E1'10..:D..miss them and love them so much:D...Seriously no matter how good or well your current friends are treating you..they still cant be compared to secondary school friends..:D..
Now about friends..i'm brutally honest so i will just spill it all here..about my poly friends..some people are wondering why am i jumping around groups..one second from a gang of girl and to another..:/..will lets just say somethings been bugging me for awhile..maybe its just me but i'm thinking maybe someone is just spreading stuff about me..truth or not..i am not gonna let that bug me..I tried to talk to them but they whole group is like practically ignoring me...Haiz..kinda sad to lose them and what's worst is that i dunno the reason why for their behaviour..Well..i guess from all these you can really tell who are your true friends...i lose a bunch of i dunno...but they lose a good friend i guess..:/
Apparently hong yan and yue ting knows whats going on..hehe..both of them are good..best people reader ever...i can read people but cant be compared to them..not that experience i guess..xP..Been through so much but i've never been so deeply affected by it..
HY said these to me..."Good friend one or two is enough, time will show you who your true friends are..Those that you think are good friends to you may not be real(friends).."..That last sentence really got me thinking..hmm i wonder..
Heh..yesterday i got my class outing with my previous classmates 4E1'10..:D..miss them and love them so much:D...Seriously no matter how good or well your current friends are treating you..they still cant be compared to secondary school friends..:D..
Now about friends..i'm brutally honest so i will just spill it all here..about my poly friends..some people are wondering why am i jumping around groups..one second from a gang of girl and to another..:/..will lets just say somethings been bugging me for awhile..maybe its just me but i'm thinking maybe someone is just spreading stuff about me..truth or not..i am not gonna let that bug me..I tried to talk to them but they whole group is like practically ignoring me...Haiz..kinda sad to lose them and what's worst is that i dunno the reason why for their behaviour..Well..i guess from all these you can really tell who are your true friends...i lose a bunch of i dunno...but they lose a good friend i guess..:/
Apparently hong yan and yue ting knows whats going on..hehe..both of them are good..best people reader ever...i can read people but cant be compared to them..not that experience i guess..xP..Been through so much but i've never been so deeply affected by it..
HY said these to me..."Good friend one or two is enough, time will show you who your true friends are..Those that you think are good friends to you may not be real(friends).."..That last sentence really got me thinking..hmm i wonder..