Who do you think you are? what do you think your doing? What makes you think that if your the one that played a role in giving birth to me..gives you the rights to abuse me physically and verbally? So what if i have to depend on you to raise me up?..does that also give you the right to vent your stress and anger on me?..If you want want vent your anger..buy a punching bag instead! Why vent it on me?..You are a sexist..(though you always denied that)..you dotes and protect brother more than me..I'm okay with it..For the sake of his studies..restricted me from many things that i've been restricted for years since primary school...When i finally thought you allow me to have the freedom i deserve when i am 16..BAAM!!..There you go nagging....Though all those things you had done to me..I'm okay with it..I didn't even report to the police..
From everything that you had did which caused me injuries like bruises,scars and even small fractures..you should have been put behind bars now..but no..i never did cause i know our family needs you and i love you too..but things really hard for me these few days that i have no choice but to let it out here...First my school and now my family...DAmn..who in the right mind will be happy?..These few days your not getting any better too..Throw tantrum and lashed at me out in public...damn practically threw my face away..how do you think i feel?...
Haiz...Why will you care anyways..you always think that your right and everyones wrong..even if i approach you on the problems your younger son and daughter are having..you wouldn't believe me..I known for being brutally honest..and yet..
WHy?!..tell me why?..is it all because i lack that piece of meat between my legs like your son?..or it is i can't sweet talk like your younger daughter?..What do you want from me?!
People who read this i think so of you can't believe what ever i'm writing..thinking i must be making this up..hah..to tell you all the truth...all this are true..not many of my friends really know..only a couple..
Why i didn't let other of my friend know?..well one thing is that i can't really express myself through speech to my friends..esp my emotional stuffs..i will break down..secondly...With my always happy-go-lucky , bo-chap attitude i show to my friends..do you think that will even listen or believe what ever i'm saying?:/..I'm just saying..they will not..their answer will most probably be "are you serious?..", "you're kiddin rite?:)", or just "oh i see..*a damn fake sad look*"...(It's true..It happened too many times..i'm tired of telling my problems to people...)
Not that i want their pity..i just need someone to understand what i'm going through..its really hard for me to hang on now..:/..
