School Starts

Today's the first day of school..Haha..just ended my CSAS 2 tutorial:D..now i'm waiting at the benches for kai ying to have dinner together..hurr..last night a relative passed away at the hospital..hope everyone are taking good care of themselves...:/..she's finally here!..haha..going off on..CIAOS!

Think it Through

Seriously?!..What is wrong with people these few days..haiz..guess i learnt my lesson..don't reveal every single things about yourselves to new found friends...you can never know what they really think about it..and if the friendship will ever last..From my past month..I guess i really tried too hard to be someone that everyone like and enjoy being with..instead its the other way round..Guess i brought all this things to myself..Really don't know what i was thinking man!..i mean what the hell..haiz..Really hope to start all over again..i know i can't savage those that i have lost but i hope to start new real and sincere friendships with the other..esp with those that i've just met..Note to self:what matters the most is to be yourself and do not try too hard to be someone you're not, people have to like you and accept you for who you really are..and not someone your acting as...Respect others and most important respect yourself..have self-confidence too don't be easily swayed by others...that way..its not that hard to make friends...Last thing..do not judge people by their looks..but instead look for something beautiful deep inside of them..that way..wonderful friendship can happen...from that you can know the memories and moments with them are real and happy even though they only last awhile..

Who do you think you are? what do you think your doing? What makes you think that if your the one that played a role in giving birth to me..gives you the rights to abuse me physically and verbally? So what if i have to depend on you to raise me up?..does that also give you the right to vent your stress and anger on me?..If you want want vent your anger..buy a punching bag instead! Why vent it on me?..You are a sexist..(though you always denied that)..you dotes and protect brother more than me..I'm okay with it..For the sake of his studies..restricted me from many things that i've been restricted for years since primary school...When i finally thought you allow me to have the freedom i deserve when i am 16..BAAM!!..There you go nagging....Though all those things you had done to me..I'm okay with it..I didn't even report to the police..
From everything that you had did which caused me injuries like bruises,scars and even small fractures..you should have been put behind bars now..but no..i never did cause i know our family needs you and i love you too..but things really hard for me these few days that i have no choice but to let it out here...First my school and now my family...DAmn..who in the right mind will be happy?..These few days your not getting any better too..Throw tantrum and lashed at me out in public...damn practically threw my face away..how do you think i feel?...
Haiz...Why will you care anyways..you always think that your right and everyones wrong..even if i approach you on the problems your younger son and daughter are having..you wouldn't believe me..I known for being brutally honest..and yet..
WHy?!..tell me why?..is it all because i lack that piece of meat between my legs like your son?..or it is i can't sweet talk like your younger daughter?..What do you want from me?!
People who read this i think so of you can't believe what ever i'm writing..thinking i must be making this up..hah..to tell you all the truth...all this are true..not many of my friends really know..only a couple..
Why i didn't let other of my friend know?..well one thing is that i can't really express myself through speech to my friends..esp my emotional stuffs..i will break down..secondly...With my always happy-go-lucky , bo-chap attitude i show to my friends..do you think that will even listen or believe what ever i'm saying?:/..I'm just saying..they will not..their answer will most probably be "are you serious?..", "you're kiddin rite?:)", or just "oh i see..*a damn fake sad look*"...(It's true..It happened too many times..i'm tired of telling my problems to people...)
Not that i want their pity..i just need someone to understand what i'm going through..its really hard for me to hang on now..:/..

Last Week!!D:

Things been abit crappy these few days..but I'll get over it:]..hehe..
These week there's Salvo Trainin! It's Great, picked up things real quick and went through the scores in my head several times...can't wait for the next practice!:DD
Good news! tomorrow's the class chalet! Really looking forward to it! Hope it will be WILD:P...
Bad news:(..this is the last week of the holidays and skool gonna start next week..not only that...next week all of us are gonna get back our term test results...URGH..D;..damn..:/..
That's about it i guess..CIAOS!:]


.::something random::.

When love was love,

And hate was hate,

Hate can't be love,

We'd lose all faith

But if love could be love,

And hate could be hate,

Hate could be love,

And then we'll all have faith..

The one

They never knew the hurt inside,
I always tried to smile with pride,
They don’t know how I really feel,
I never try to talk and heal,
I always come across so tough,
But in the end it’s not enough,
I never have been truly loved,
That’s when you came,
Full of love, arms open,
Now without you it’s just not the same

The love we used to share,

Gone up in whirl winds,

Will i ever love, or ever live again.

I'm tired of crying

and I'm done trying

To remember all about you,

But when i close my eyes,

All i see is you...

All the love I'm sending,

The memories I won't sell,

I know there must be an ending,

To the story i will tell.

I dream only of your love happiness in life...

I try not to think of you,

But no matter how hard i try,

When i close my eyes...

All i see is you...

BANG!

Nothing much today..hehe..After the AMK Health briefing,went to have lunch @ KFC with Nazihah and Anisa..:DD..Heh we did abit of jalanjalan and shopping.:D..I got myself a Chino pants from Uniqlo..haha..tried it together with the BigBang blue shirt..wow and the combi is GREAT!..hehe..but i did not have much money on hand after i got my dad's present so i only get the pants..haiz..now i keep thinking about that shirt...argh!~..really want it badly..:/..(actually i keep thinkin and talking about that shirt after i tried it..haha...sorry about all those mumblings hehes..)..Anisa and Nazihah said that the shirts strikin and looks really good on me..hehe..OKAY!..I will get it!..but this week's kinda busy..:/..how?!..hope by the time i go get it there's still my size...

Look Good eh?..I really like the colour combination..:)

Argh..damn bored..:(..was about to rot at home when my brotha asked me to play maplestory with him..:o..Haha..kinda lame but it better than rottin on the chair with nothin to do..hehe..so i created one character and played...not bad..time pass fast with this game.:]..

Haha..Tomoro's the AMK briefing..Hope it will be a quick one cause i'm meetin up with my SFP group to discuss about the presentation.:D..And after that i'm gonna get my dad's fathers' day present...a Braun Buffel wallet...hehe..:P..that's all i guess..gonna do up my part of the SFP later..CIAOS PEEPS!:D

"My night has become a sunny dawn because of you."
-Ibn Abbad

It's the HOLIDAYS!~

Hehehehe!..My Term Tests are O-V-E-R!..Though i don't know if i will do well for them..but who cares?!..they are over for now and i should not think about them and enjoy my holidays until school reopens..:DDD...
Well..i want to enjoy my holidays..but things at home is like so boring..I'm rottin plus it so humid at night(like now..:/)..My holidays is like only two weeks and my first one i'm gonna go back to skool for all my weekdays except mon..argh! the horror~~...The AMK health checkup briefing isn't that bad..Its the camp..0-0..I don't really like the idea of spendin my holidays in a camp in school..but they said its a rite we as freshman have to go through before we are official members of salvo drum(like learn proper songs from scores)..so i guess i have to go through that..hehe..><..anything for DRUMMIN!..
Met up with some old friends of mine..Some of them are tryin to set me up with someone..:/..Not to say that that person not good..That cute person you all introduced is damn good-lookin!..and i'm serious!:D..But i already have someone else in mind..hehe..><..so sorry about that....I'm now trying to get to know that person well so i can pull some tatics..hehe..LOL!..kiddin..haha..AIYA!..for now just see first lah..I'm not gonna think so much either..:)..hehe..
Lookin forward to the second week!..CHALET with my class A02..:D..hopefully we can have a good and interesting nite;)..Cheers all enjoy your holidays everybody!:P

Thought:3

What's wrong with me?..Seriously I have no idea..:/..haiz..for the past few days i have not been myself..There are people calling me up and texting me, asking if i'm okay or not..well..;X..hehe..I'm fine now!..In fact better!..:D..haha..I've been moody for the past few days becos of some things and its also because my menses coming!Well its already here le larz..:X..LOL!..><..haha..(ps:days before my period i can be damn moody..but when its here i can be damn hyper like NOW!)..hehe:DD..

Now back to topic...hmm..what's that arh..Oh yah!..

hmm..though it's been a month since poly started, but i seems i still can't get the hang of it.:/..

I don't know is it me or what but it seems that i suddenly can't joke around like normal..like the old wei shan used to..:/..Hope things will get better soon or else i really don't know what i can do le..:x...actually saw my ex couple of days ago..damn tt person changed alot..o-o..very haggard..too stress i think...heyhey..though we are not together anymore..as a friend take good care of yourself drink more water and don't push yourself too hard:]..anything don't keep it to yourself..try to talk to someone..

Wah..sounds like i still care for my ex alot huh..haha..rite..i still care..but as a friend:]..currently i am interested in someone else le..its just a crush i think cause i know it kinda impossible for us to be together..unless miracles happen?..haha.xD..yea so for now i'm just gonna concentrate on my studies bah..wah gtg sleep le!..CIAOS!:O