Replay & Rewind

'you must be dead tired,always sleeping so late,even though is the term break..' hmm..now I'm sitting at some certain void deck..listening to music,humming along and doing some deep thinking..like finally I have time for these.. its been awhile now since I last updated this blog..:) things are going well, nothing too major to worry about other than some minor stuff like cca etc. haven really get the time to enjoy this break..project project and more project..I dun even have enough time for a good ZZZs not to say to have time for myself to do some leisure stuff...and in just a few days time school's gonna start..uhhh.. duno if its me being affect alot..my head kinda pop out lots of what ifs..lol..what if the things that I've went through never really happen..would I still take every thing especially what I have now lightly..these few days the things I am going through feels like déjà vu..the only differences is my attitude towards it..my first one I react to it like as if my whole world is falling apart and took quite awhile to recover..my second one it's kinda hurts like just a sting..but I got back right on track immediately..the third one..Uhh it's like the whole thing didn even happen and now this..:/..I used to have this mindset that I should take every single one seriously..but with each setback,disappointment..it doesn't allow me to be that way..but it's not anyone's fault..it's just mine..if only I focus on what I'm suppose to do and dont go through any of those stuff..maybe I would by have ended up this way..what I want now is that I hope I won't have to hurt anyone around me..especially the one I love the most...